10/9/08

Dream -

The setting in this particular dream is unknown to me, but it felt possibly like a business building, or a very warped version of the first floor Heinz hall where I currently live at. And beginning and ending of the dream is fuzzy to me, but one particular area in the middle stood out to me, probably because it made me angry in my dream.

So for the sake of explanation, I'll say that the dream took place in Heinz on my floor. It was nighttime and very dark except for a few lights out in the hallway that glowed a sickening yellow. It wasn't very comforting, and neither was seeing my ex boyfriend Ryan again. He visited unannounced, which by a few blurry recollections in the beginning of the dream, I believe I said we'd get back together.

So he came, and at first I was a little excited, though in the back of my head the reality of my current "relationship" situation came crawling back. A sensation of guilt washed over me. Afterwards, I made a silent promise to myself to get Ryan to leave, but he didn't make it too hard.

As I was going through this mental dilemma, the only thing I remember him doing was sifting through my jewelry box that was placed on my dresser in the room. It didn't peak my curiosity until he pulled out this tortoise shell star necklace (which in the dream was apparently my favorite). I watched as he snapped it apart, and I fumed. He threw one of the broken jagged pieces at me, commanding me to "make him a necklace so that it will be a symbol of the day we started dating again". I had said no such thing. It was an assumption of his that just made me so aggravated that I ran out of the room. He chased after me, and I remember seeing the hall blur, people playing video games in the community rooms. I had a sense that it was 2AM as well.

And then I blacked out.

Environmental Influences -

Usually in my dreams, I can trace back slight influences within the past day or two that help illustrate them. So here I go:

Setting - If my dream really was conveying Heinz hall, first floor, it is the place I come in contact with most throughout my days here. Over the past month or so, I've also been having problems getting to sleep when I want to, since the girls in the hall are a little less than considerate with the volume of their annoying mouths. That may or may not have influenced the time frame at which it felt like the dream took place (2AM).

People - The only person who I saw in this dream, aside from the faceless shadows playing videogames in the lounge, was my ex Ryan. We broke up near the end of August, about a week before college started for me, and we haven't talked to each other since. From past experiences, I have grown a horrible distaste for controlling boyfriends. That is probably the reason why I was furious when he demanded I make something for him, especially from my "favorite" necklace that he broke.

Items - The necklace that was in my dream is different from the one I own in real life, but I knew which one in particular my dream was referring to. It is actually a small star pendant with a moonstone at the center, while in my dream it appeared as a tortoise shell, star-shaped gem. It isn't actually my favorite necklace to wear though.

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